Month: October 2025

What’s the point of doing fun stuff if you’re just gonna suffer the next day.

I did everything correctly, I went to church, which is good for my soul. Maybe church was too much cause I already wasn’t feeling that good after getting ready. But then my father-in-law is preaching so I want to support him. It’s so crazy how what’s good for a healthy person is not necessarily good for a chronic illness person. Like healthy person support a family member and church is good. Unhealthy person use energy for the morning at church becomes too much for the event you’re doing later.

My birthday is tomorrow. Why do I have to be flaring and dealing with October slide right now…It’s just so unbelievably annoying. I just wanted to have a fun time with family and lunch and then go to two stores which I did the best decision. I brought my wheelchair and used it so that I could save energy and not walk. But apparently that’s not the decision that’s gonna make me feel good the next day should I’ve just had lunch and then head home. Yes, that probably would’ve been smarter but I just wanna be a normal person and be able to go shopping when I want to. It was so fun! I felt so cute!

I wasn’t wearing my red glasses, which helped me with stimulation and vestibular migraine stuff. So maybe I needed to wear those when I was shopping plus I didn’t even take the pills. I need to take them during lunch. And then getting home and doing a shopping haul try on…maybe wasn’t the best decision including spinning in my pretty dress!!

I was just in the moment and I forgot about those looking back. Maybe some things sort of would have helped but we can’t look backwards. We have to look forwards.

But now my birthday is tomorrow and I have no idea if I’m gonna have the energy to do anything. Due to today being stuck in bed with a migraine and heart issues.

I know I’m gonna look back on those pictures and see the few things I bought and be happy and excited for what the day was. I’m just really praying that I’ll be healthy tomorrow for my birthday October 21st. If not, we might just have to do something chill.

I was about to go out to lunch in a downtown area. The plan was to meet up with my sister and kids, and my aunt, and my mom. Which we did! But I had the wheelchair cause my energy was depleted…then the ground was cobblestones which does not do well when you’re in a wheelchair. I still had a great time living on Dr.Pepper, mimosa, and prayer.

Now it’s been a few weeks and the last week of the flare of my conditions have been much worse.

Love, T