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New Year New Me?

Teresa Love

You hear this saying a lot during this new year time. New year new me? But what does this really mean? Have we made it through the whole year just to change some things in your life since it’s a new year.

Or is it an arbitrary saying created by people who didn’t just survive last year but actually thrived?

I personally feel like you don’t need to start this new habits in January, you can start them whenever you’d like. I wanted to get back into the Word and really focus on my spiritual practices. But I didn’t wait til January, I actually started in December.

I’m proud that I did that. I started a devotional on the Youversion app that was called “New Testament in a Year.” This plan chooses a month and you start.

I’ve also liked sitting outside, listening to worship music while I read the devotional. That’s been a wonderful addition to my routine.

My husband was laid of end of October, and he’s been filling out so many applications. Praying this month he finds something.

I’m ready for 2026! This will be a great year full of good energy, health, fun events, and enjoying every single moment.

Love, T

Beauty/Lifestyle Blogger

October Slide Turns into November…

Teresa Love

I’m tired.

Lately I’ve been in a flare. I may know what triggered the flare. Enjoying scary movies with my husband on days leading up to Halloween and night of Halloween. Or possibly the birthday week of celebrating my birthday. But I did decide to do less and use the wheelchair when needed.

But do I deserve to be this bad right now? NO! It’s really hard when I’m constantly trying to find things that will help. Whether it’s a new supplement, a new exercise, or something for my mind. It just doesn’t work. I keep thinking if I can get back to even where I was 2 months ago that would be so nice. I was still struggling with some things, and needed rest days. But I could do a lot more and then crash, but I had fun.

The other day I went out of the house after getting ready for makeup, dressed, and I wore binder. My abdominal binder is a compression garment that I Velcro close around my abdomen. It’s helped a lot! I can finally go back to church and use it and sit in the chairs.

But this one day I wore it went to my parents house for lunch with my family. And has I was sitting there I just started to get sicker and sicker as if I wasn’t wearing the binder. So I thought what usually helps well alcohol actually helps me stay upright and can have energy to do fun things. So I had someone grab me a high noon. A few sips just hoping wishing it would work. And it didn’t. I had to cut the time short and go home good thing I live a few doors down from my parents though.

I was racking my brain…why isn’t this working? What’s going on? I prayed. I cried. I felt despair.

That was a week ago. It’s a flare for sure but new symptoms too.

I just gotta keep praying. Asking for peace. Assurance. Happy moments. I need to give it to God. I need to leave it all at the foot of the cross.

Love, T

🎶Sinking Deep – Hillsong United

Beauty/Lifestyle Blogger

Fun = pain?

Teresa Love

What’s the point of doing fun stuff if you’re just gonna suffer the next day.

I did everything correctly, I went to church, which is good for my soul. Maybe church was too much cause I already wasn’t feeling that good after getting ready. But then my father-in-law is preaching so I want to support him. It’s so crazy how what’s good for a healthy person is not necessarily good for a chronic illness person. Like healthy person support a family member and church is good. Unhealthy person use energy for the morning at church becomes too much for the event you’re doing later.

My birthday is tomorrow. Why do I have to be flaring and dealing with October slide right now…It’s just so unbelievably annoying. I just wanted to have a fun time with family and lunch and then go to two stores which I did the best decision. I brought my wheelchair and used it so that I could save energy and not walk. But apparently that’s not the decision that’s gonna make me feel good the next day should I’ve just had lunch and then head home. Yes, that probably would’ve been smarter but I just wanna be a normal person and be able to go shopping when I want to. It was so fun! I felt so cute!

I wasn’t wearing my red glasses, which helped me with stimulation and vestibular migraine stuff. So maybe I needed to wear those when I was shopping plus I didn’t even take the pills. I need to take them during lunch. And then getting home and doing a shopping haul try on…maybe wasn’t the best decision including spinning in my pretty dress!!

I was just in the moment and I forgot about those looking back. Maybe some things sort of would have helped but we can’t look backwards. We have to look forwards.

But now my birthday is tomorrow and I have no idea if I’m gonna have the energy to do anything. Due to today being stuck in bed with a migraine and heart issues.

I know I’m gonna look back on those pictures and see the few things I bought and be happy and excited for what the day was. I’m just really praying that I’ll be healthy tomorrow for my birthday October 21st. If not, we might just have to do something chill.

I was about to go out to lunch in a downtown area. The plan was to meet up with my sister and kids, and my aunt, and my mom. Which we did! But I had the wheelchair cause my energy was depleted…then the ground was cobblestones which does not do well when you’re in a wheelchair. I still had a great time living on Dr.Pepper, mimosa, and prayer.

Day out

Now it’s been a few weeks and the last week of the flare of my conditions have been much worse.

Love, T

Health Journey, Music

I’d be UNSTOPPABLE if I was healthy

Teresa Love

Today, both my parents came down with the flu, and my husband has a really bad cold. Since I’m on antivirals, I seem to have gotten a little bit of the cold, just runny nose and slight cough.

But for some reason, I have an EXTREME amount of energy right now. I didn’t wanna just sit around today since I was gonna be alone. So I put on an audiobook on Onyx Storm by Rebecca Yaros and decided to clean up clutter, dust surfaces, and blinds. I like to keep our space clean, specially, for the healthy mindset that it gives me.

After I did that I ate lunch and then I decided to re-organize my books in our space. I re-organize them to rainbow shelves and dusted it all.

I took Bookstagram pics and put those away.

Shelves done

The amount of energy that it takes me to do one task let alone I did four is insane.

For some reason when I have a little cold have so much energy. This makes me happy, but it’s also bittersweet because I know as soon as I start to feel better the chronic fatigue and stuff chimes in.

I had a glimpse today of Teresa healthy. Having the energy I would need throughout the day having the want in ambition and ability to do things feeling productive and what I did and accomplished on how much I did.

I would be unstoppable if I wasn’t sick. I could do anything I wanted I could go anywhere I wanted I could fly again I go to concerts or events or just go to church easier.

It’s really hard sitting in this moment of having energy and seeing how life could be.

We are working very hard trying to just find something that can help me. Maybe ChatGPT has an answer. Keep praying and hoping I just wanna be healthy again. Maybe one day I will be!

Unstoppable

Song by Sia

“All smiles, I know what it takes to fool this town
I’ll do it ’til the sun goes down
And all through the nighttime
Oh, yeah
Oh, yeah, I’ll tell you what you wanna hear
Leave my sunglasses on while I shed a tear
It’s never the right time
Yeah, yeah

I put my armor on, show you how strong I am
I put my armor on, I’ll show you that I am

I’m unstoppable
I’m a Porsche with no brakes
I’m invincible
Yeah, I win every single game
I’m so powerful
I don’t need batteries to play
I’m so confident
Yeah, I’m unstoppable today.”

Just some thoughts.

Love, T