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Teresa Love

It’s late and that is when negative thought start to creep in my head and I try with all my might and through prayer to push them out.

I have been seeing so many YouTube videos, Instagram, and twitter posts on Taylor Swift’s Reputation Stadium Tour. I have loved her from the beginning ever since I saw her sing on the CMAs with Tim McGraw. I have never judged her and always believed she handled being famous really well. I loved her songs about her ex boyfriends! Her music has gotten me through really tough stuff in my life from having cancer, being bullied, and breakups and relationships.

When I had a MAKE-A-WISH, I was deciding between meeting her and going to Hawaii, I chose Hawaii so I could go with my family for a week. I have truly admired how much in interviews and on her tours how she was so real and really just seemed like a sweet “Girl Trying to Make a Place in This World,” that’s from one of her songs. I loved her country music but then when she slowly transitioned through Red to 1989 all the way to Reputation, I feel IN LOVE even more!!! I love that as she grew as a person she was able to guide all that growing into new music each time.

When I went to her 1989 Tour, I was so emotional it was directly after a breakup and literally EXACTLY what she said was what I needed to hear. I totally knew God was looking out for me.

Now it’s 2018. She has her Reputation Stadium Tour and I can’t go. I can’t attempt to get tickets, I can’t listen to her cd the whole way there, I can’t be excited and look forward to going, I can’t stand in the stadium and breath in all the hopes and dreams of the other fans, I can’t walk through the crowds and crowds of people, I can’t stand in line in the merchandise tour booth, I can’t scream and yell for her when she comes out or even when there is an encore. I can’t.

This is when having a chronic illness that affects all of this really gets in the way. I just have to be a fan from a far and cheer her on in my own house.

I do miss life sometimes. This is one of those moments that hit me hard. I want to go, I want to be there, I want to have fun, I want to be normal. But I am not normal. I am unique. I am powerful even in my weakness. I have a God who loves me and wants to be in relationship with me. I have the strength to stay away from the tour and the wisdom to know I won’t be able to go. It’s not easy, but it’s possible with God to conquer anything.

I really do admire everything Taylor Swift is doing, she works with Make a Wish, is involved in so many charities, she still tries to have a love life even though her relationships have been rocky. I just enjoy seeing her blossom into the amazing woman she is. I am proud to be her fan.

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My friend J was just talking about blogging today and it really made me miss it. I remember when I used to just get a thought and run with it through words. I love just writing and not worrying about what people will see it, if it even sounds good, or how much to write. I always try to keep everything private with names and such but I still do really enjoy talking about my life.

Let’s see not much is going on right now I am still just here chilling. Oh wait I don’t know if I told you…I was diagnosed with 2 chronic illness. One is Chronic Fatigue Syndrome / ME and the other is Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia. Yep, so that is annoying!!!!

I have had these crazy symptoms for 4 years off and on with like one week episodes and then a few months. We are talking nausea, dizziness, fatigue, weakness, shortness of breath, heart palpitations, unbalanced, no energy, depression, body pain, swelling, and so much more!! Then randomly I would just get better and be totally fine. These episodes were totally non functioning I could barely get off the couch and as they went on they got worse and worse and longer and longer.

Now I have been in an episode since June 26th so that will be around 11 months soon. Honestly it sucks! I have gone through some pretty tough stuff in my life but I really haven’t gone through something as crazy and difficult as this. It takes a lot of strength in myself, strength in God, and so much support from my family and friends.

This is all God’s plan and I am just continuing to trust Him and let Him lead me wherever it goes.

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It’s Me Teresa

Teresa Love

Motto: “Be Youself. Let people see the Real, Imperfect, Flawed, Quirky, Weird, Beautiful, and Magical person that you are.” – Mandy Hale

It all started with a DREAM. A little girl who grew up watching Disney channel, Disney movies, and actresses turn into triple threats: actress, singer, and she’s beautiful. Many times I would fantasize about being that STAR traveling around and meeting so many people. Mostly the reason I wanted to be “famous’ was because I wanted to be a role model. Someone who could make a positive impact on people and kids everywhere. I feel like society has truly lost the “role model” roles. Young girls think they need to start wearing makeup so young, like it is the only face they can show in public. Don’t get me wrong, I love MAKEUP. I believe that it accentuates a person’s beauty features, creates more confidence, and makes you feel “pretty.”

This channel, Teresa Love, is my heart. It is my heart on the table all opened up for you to see.

I created this Youtube channel, Teresa Love, to just be MYSELF. You will never see fake content. This channel will involve so much with MAKEUP: Makeup Tutorials, Get Ready With Me, Full Face Makeup Tutorials, Drugstore Makeup Tutorials, Hits or Misses, Monthly Favorites, Eye Looks, Makeup Hauls, and Makeup Reviews and Swatches. The FASHION part will have: Fashion Hauls, Weekly Outfits, Outfit of the Day, and Get Ready With Me Fancy Nights. There will also be a DIY section this will include: DIY Room Decor, DIY Face Scrubs, DIY make anything. CRAFTS: Painting, Watercolor, Making Clay Things, Scrapbook Cards, and any project I want to try. UNBOXINGS: Subscription Boxes, Amazon, Ulta, Target, and Michaels. VLOGS: Trips, Shopping Outings, Baking endeavors, and special Vlog times like Vlogmas. And BOOKS: Book Reviews, Book Collections, and Book Challenges. Last but not least, a CHRISTIAN section: Book Reviews, Impactful and Helpful Bible Verses, Devotions, Conversations, and the Truth. Question and Answer, I will be as honest, true, and real, as I can safely be.