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The Proposal Story

Secret Proposal pics

It was a Wednesday evening when Ricky asked Teresa to go out to dinner on Friday for an early dinner to celebrate our 10 months together. Since we missed the celebration before. At first Teresa was quite suspicious thinking maybe the ring came in and it was time to get proposed to. But as she kept mentioning and asking to be proposed to before her Chicago trip. Ricky kept saying it probably wasn’t going to happen in time. This bummed Teresa out. Now Friday 7/29/22 Teresa asked what to wear to dinner he said what ever you’d like I’m not dressing up. Therefore this made Teresa think he wasn’t going to propose there. Plus all the other days she’s been wearing dresses and going her makeup all cute.

As we drive to dinner we have a great time chatting. Get to dinner and have to wait. So we wait outside talking about how happy we are. At dinner, Teresa jokingly says “don’t put a ring in my food I don’t want to break my teeth, he says haha no of course not I wouldn’t propose here also I’m so sorry but the ring hasn’t come I won’t be able to propose before you leave. Teresa got freaky really sad and thought she could tell by his face that he was being truthful. Teresa is taking her time eating like normal but Ricky starts to rush her a little bit saying “oh traffic just jumped to 27 mins to 57 mins, we have to go. But Teresa wants dessert! Unfortunately it’s too late and the check comes and we rush out of the restaurant to avoid the bad traffic.

They talk a little bit in the car but then Teresa gets super super tired and asks to take a little nap which worked out great because Rick ended up taking the back roads and Teresa would have gotten car sick.

As we near Teresa’s house Rick nicely wakes Teresa up saying “we are almost home but can you do me a favor and close your eyes for me?” Of course she does. As she keeps her eyes closed he drives a little more and then parks. He says “keep your eyes closed and hold on.” He gets out of the car goes into the trunk and supposedly walks away. She waits patiently. After a minute or two Rick comes back helps her unbuckle and grabs her hand saying “follow me.” He leads her up a curb and onto the sidewalk. She’s walking so slow in his words. He guides her to the swings and has her sit. Then says “okay open your eyes.” She does.

He’s right in front of her. Starts to say all there cute things. (a little boy says will you push me while on the swing next to us) then in shorts kneels down in the tan bark and pulls out a ring and says “will you marry me?” She says “yes of course!!!” Hugs and kisses him. (the little boy says are you done with that yet? Pointing to my swing.) He puts the ring in her finger. And then after a few minutes he takes my hand and says let’s walk. We walk across the park.

As we walk we are just over the moon excited and she keeps looking at her ring. Then he says “have you ever noticed over that hill there is a basketball hoop?” Teresa looks over to the right and keeps looking for it squinting cause she can’t see without her glasses very easily. Finally she sees it. He pauses turns her to the left and says “babe look.”

When she looks she sees a white pop up tent with a Love balloon, pictures strung on the wall, pink roses, a sparkling cider bottle, and fruit bowl. It was straight out of a romance movie. She kissed him and cried. Their pictures were covering the walls. What an adorable and peaceful set up.

It was pretty amazing!!!! Can’t wait to be Mrs!

Love, T

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It’s Been a Crazy Week!!!

God is good!!!

Life has been a whirlwind lately. As my boyfriend Rick and I have been getting to know each other and learning everything about each other. We discovered that even at a early time of dating we loved each other. And now fast forward 9 months! We are planning to find a place to live and get married.

This is not a love letter to my boyfriend. It’s a “wow I can’t believe this is my life right now!?”

7 years of being sick 4 of them being close to housebound and now I am in the process of finding a place to live away from my parents, I have a boyfriend who truly cares about me, and we are planning a wedding in the future. Like serious what is my life!?

Story time: months and months ago Ricky and I put our name on a waiting list for these apartments that weren’t even built yet. The wonderful this is they are literally 1 minute from my house now. This means with my health my mom can help me anytime I need, if he’s not home and I’m having a bad health day or symptom. We really wanted to stay in our same town as close as we could to my parents. Then on Thursday July 30th they contacted us. Asking if we wanted to come in for a tour? Of course we said “yes!” Scheduled it for July 10th which was in 2 Saturdays. I understood I needed to wait but I was starting to worry a little. Then Saturday morning they texted and said “you can come at 11:30am for a tour.” Of course we said “yes!”

We went for the tour. At first it seemed odd cause it was still a construction site and we knocked and no one answered. It was daylight so we weren’t worried and I have my big tough guy with me. Lol

So I called the number they texted me and they said “oh awesome, we are here we will walk down from the model home section.” We met 2 really nice ladies. They right away showed us the clubhouse which had a heated pool, pool table, high ceilings, tables and high seats, etc. it looked awesome!

Then they took us in the golf cart to the one apartment that is actually finished. It was absolutely beautiful. Loved everything. It didn’t feel too small which can be a big problem for me cause I get claustrophobic. I could totally picture us living there. There was a nice kitchen with all appliances. There was windows that brought in a lot of light. And a walk in closet which could be a nice way to hide some stuff (makeup drawers, book cart, bathroom cart, clothes, etc) and a bath/shower in the bathroom nothing was too short which can be a problem with our tall heights. Is was gorgeous and very home like.

There’s a little more process to do but we are looking at our expenses and planning to jump on the application when we get all our ducks in a row and they contact us again.

Then we decided to go look at rings. I knew I wanted to look and he didn’t know even my size so we went on a little trip to go ring shopping. First we went to the place he got my necklace which was for Valentine’s Day ended up finding the ABSOLUTE perfect dream ring there it’s unique just like I am as he said. So now we are starting the process to plan the wedding because the ring will take 2-4 weeks for it to come in since it’s custom. Exciting!!!!!!

Im just really happy, excited, joyful, and content. I still have my ups and downs with my health. Even a newish thing if I think too much or do too much for too long then I get a pretty bad migraine (so that’s fun…not)

But seriously I am feeling so blessed!!

For now. Please pray and send us good thoughts. We need to stay calm, relaxed, and excited. When God opens door we chose to walk through.

Love, T

Beauty/Lifestyle Blogger, Health Journey

Resting is Self Care

Hey it’s me!

Something amazing happens!? It’s really cool. Haha that reminds me of when I used to watch The Wild Thornberries and she’d say “she could talk to animals but it’s totally secret.”

June 26th 2021 marks 4 years straight of being chronically ill. Barely leaving the house, using mobility aids whether it’s my walker or wheelchair, and watching my life fly by while I’m stuck staying reclined almost 24/7 in my chair.

I don’t even know when this started but for a few months now I started feeling better. First I could walk without my walker for like 20 mins and I was amazed. Then I felt more strength in my legs from all the movement my doctors have me doing. Then I started to be able to sit up for longer periods 10 mins to 2 hours now. Now I can walk without my walker most days and do a lot more. Now to figure out life but that will be another post. Lol

Honesty it’s so FREAKIN amazing. Like feeling better, having energy and motivation to do more is so great.

But what I forget about sometimes is I’m still sick. There’s no cure for my condition so I may get to a functioning level, but I will still need to rest. And honestly I’m okay with that. At first I was like doing all these things each day and then I’d get to day 8 and be exhausted and sad. But now I understand that I need rest days, hours, and minutes.

So when I start to feel tired or worn down I just have to remember self care is important and resting takes priority over anything else.

Love, Teresa

Beauty/Lifestyle Blogger

Emotions

I think it’s interesting how much your emotions can change from one second to the next. At one moment you’re feeling okay and content and the next you can feel so distraught or sad and you don’t know why.

I understand it is my depression but I still feel like it’s such an abnormal feeling in my body. I’m the girl who is smiling because she’s happy. The girl who cheers other people up. But now I’m the girl whose sad. I’m the girl whose tired of feeling sick all the time. Who has all these emotions and she’s writing because she doesn’t know how to get them out.

I’ve always pulled my strength from God. I was doing a Bible study the other day with my mom and there was a part that said “ Happiness is dependent on what happens – our circumstances. Joy is far deeper and is not so dependent on our outward circumstances. It is a blessing from God. Joy is the characteristic of an encounter with Jesus.” I feel like this really speaks to how I feel. Even if I feel emotionally sad it doesn’t mean I have lost the JOY and HOPE we can find in Jesus.

Love, T

Health Journey

On June 26th A Year

Today marks a year.

A year of being sick.

A year of feeling alone.

A year of people not understanding what I’m going through.

A year of willing and wishing to get better and each day it stays the same.

A year of prayer to get better and for something good to come out of it.

A year of tears and crying sessions.

A year of planning things and then having to cancel because I am still sick.

A year of having to stop going to church.

It’s been a whole year. I am not normally a person who remembers dates but I do have a few in my life that really stick out. Christmas: December 25th, My birthday: October 21st, My cancer diagnosis day: October 18th, and the day my episode started last year: June 26th.

This day, June 26th, has been on my mind for a while now. I kept putting goals in place. Last July I was thinking, “I will totally be better by my birthday in October.” Then I wasn’t. Christmas is in 2 months, “I have to be better by then.” Again it didn’t happen. These “goals” made me feel like a failure, like I couldn’t “make myself better.” Like my faith wasn’t strong enough to get me through this difficult time. “I can’t be sick for another month this is crazy,” I kept telling myself. I was almost in a dazed state of confusion that this was still happening.

Then my episode hit the 6 month mark and I was so ready for it to be over. By this time I had been away from church for 6 months, hadn’t been able to leave the house much, finished all the Netflix shows I could think of, and was just ready to “start my life again.” Start my life again? That implies that I stopped living when I got sick. I “died.”

But I DIDN’T die, I am still here. I am still breathing.

Sure, my life looks very different than it used to. But I can use my mind in anyway I want and I CHOOSE to make my own decisions. If I want to be artistic, I can. If I want to text my friends, I can. If I want to tell my mom a long, step by step story of exactly what happened in the show I am currently watching, I can. The bottom line is I can’t control what gets thrown at me but I can control the outcome. If I am too tired to do something one day then I can choose to do it  another day.

It’s all about decisions. As much as we think our days are all mapped out, I am here to say they are not. Even someone who works everyday doesn’t know if something will happen and they can’t go to work that next day. We never know.

That’s why for my life I choose to live in the PRESENT. I base my decisions on the now, and not push and hope looking at the future because in all honesty I don’t have that luxury right now.

Live in the Present.